I’ve always been a competitor.

Being a loser,

Being a winner,

Being a competitor itself.

It was only then that I realized that

I was and will always be…

Myself’s worst enemy.

That doesn’t exclusively be based

On the reason

That I am persistently challenging myself

To improve and thus eventually be hailed as great.

It’s not solely on the matter of admiration,

And it will never be.

I am myself’s worst enemy, because

I have inner struggles and conflicts,

Which I just tend to set aside.

With those, I use such inappropriate defense mechanisms

Like avoidance, suppression, denial, and compensation.

With those, I sometimes give up.

Which disrupts and confuses me with thinking,

And with anything in life.

Which tends to mix up with the environment,

So when I think that others are messed up,

I don’t realize it’s ME.

Being my worst enemy is a difficult task

To be recognized,

Because I am blind with who I am.

Blinded with all I see.

This task is a challenge,

Which becomes of me as a competitor.